samayou trap in endless night
彷徨う trap in endless night
Wandering trap in endless night.
sonzai jitai ni imi ushinai
存在自体に 意味失い
Losing the meaning to existence.
modorenai kako Don't you dare to know
戻れない過去 Don’t you dare to know
That past that can't be returned. Don't you dare to know.
kuzureru all things that I believe
崩れる all things that I believe
Crumbling all things that I believe
genjitsu mitakunai kurai hibi
現実見たくない 暗い日々
The dark days that don't even seem real.
nukedasenai joukyou Don't know where to go
抜け出せない状況 Don’t know where to go
I can't escape. Don't know where to go.
Do you know that "hope" is fake in this world?
And "despair" is the only truth I've got?
yami wo kirisaite
闇を切り裂いて
To cut through the darkness.
genkai sewashinai Why I must be bleeding?
限界 忙しない Why I must be bleeding?
Endless anxiety. Why I must be bleeding?
nigerenai mélancolie
逃げれない mélancolie
Unable to escape this melancholy.
genkai agaiteru hakkyou sunzen because it will never end
限界 足掻いてる 発狂寸前 because it will never end
We're at our limit, struggling on the brink of insanity because it will never end.
J'ai plus rien à croire
I don't have anything to believe in anymore.
Cette vie qu'est-ce qu'il y a à voir?
What is there to see in this life?
kanawanai this suffering-
敵わない this suffering-
I can't be granted this suffering-
genkai kowashitai That's my last scream
限界 壊したい That’s my last scream
I want to break the limits. That's my last scream!
sakerenai reality
避けれない reality
Can't avoid reality.
No pain no gain zettai kousen
No pain no gain 絶対抗戦
No Pain no gain absolute resistance.
If really there is an end
A quoi je m'attends?
What am I expecting?
Apocalypse maintenant
Apocalypse now!
kawaranai this suffering world!
変わらない this suffering world!
I cannot change this suffering world!
No matter what we do to try to jog your memory, you revert to your usual self.
That's right!
Whenever we're like "Is she back?" "Did she remember?".
And then you forget again.
What are you talking about?
I told you it's time to stop...
Time to stop doing this over and over.
I've put up with this nonsense for an entire summer...
Isn't that long enough?
For a summer?
She still doesn't get it?
We've only been playing this game since summer started.
We'll prove it...
Sanbara High School doesn't have a winter uniform!
Oh, you look surprised, Saya-chan!
But you can't remember what it would look like, right?
What uniform did you wear in elementary school?
Or middle school?
No, you can't even remember your classmates from last year.
Because...
They never existed.
They might be planning to introduce them later.
If they continue this, that is.
But...
You followed your mother's path, becoming the shrine maiden here,
so what was her name?
Do you have any family photos?
Anything you remember doing with your beloved father?
You don't have a single memory, do you?
I...
I am...
That's right.
You are...
Kisaragi...
Saya.
Kisaragi, huh?
How ridiculous...
I think giving her that name was even more ridiculous.
Hey...
Do you know what "kisaragi" means?
Means?
The word "kisaragi" means to change one's robes.
It's the perfect name for someone who changes what happens in their own head.
And so, Kisaragi-san...
No, Saya...
Even if what's inside your head changes,
My bet was that...
what's in here won't change.
Not that we care.
I want to get back to our lives.
You feel that way too, right?
Tokizane-san...
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I wan to finish this up and get the money I'm owed.
Cold-blooded!
You're in the same boat, right?
We thought this would eventually help us get a job.
It's a down economy, right?
So someone actually took on a main cast role in this retarded plan out of employment considerations?
Main cast?
That's right.
We're the main cast.
The two of us, Tokizane Shinichirou,
Amino Yuka, and Tomofusa Itsuki.
And...
Tsutsutori Kanako.
Everyone else is an extra.
But just because we're still alive, don't assume anyone else is.
Yeah, those of us in the main cast are special.
So to keep those creepy things off us,
we got these!
Then everyone else in town...
They're all dead.
I've had a pretty good time, really.
But honestly, I'm sick of all this crap now.
It's taking too long, given the crummy reward.
What reward did they promise you?
Well, you know...
We got into some trouble.
And if the police finds out, we won't be able to get hired.
Actually, we'd probably have some real problems.
So they said they'd take care of it.
And we won't have to worry about it anymore.
Right?
You bitches are criminals?
And what about you?
You knew the extras would die, but you didn't help them.
You were having fun,
pretending to be the bad boy who gets close to the heroine.
The hell I was!
Come on, you guys.
Quiet down.
You're freaking Saya out.
You're freaking her out more than anyone else, Sensei...
Oh, she's not a teacher at all!
Did you bring it?
Yeah.
Hey!
What?
Is that what I think it is?
Yeah...
Wow!
You talked about it, but I didn't think you'd really be able to get it.
How'd you do it?
I pretended to be attacked, and I got it when I ran.
That's crazy.
I could never touch those things.
That's insane...
I didn't want to, either.
But...
I want nothing more to do with these nut jobs.
Or with this freak!
Well, once Saya drinks that, things will begin to move.
But I can't guarantee the outcome!
Understood?
Naturally.
Yeah.
Now, drink this, Saya...
The blood of those you call Elder Bairns.
You really are strong...
Just like the rumours said.
I see why the US military and Japanese government don't want people knowing.
Saya, an inhuman thing in human form.
Does your strength come from the fact that you aren't human?
Or is it from the life you've lived?
I want to know.
I want you, Saya.
And for that to happen,
you need to take a nap first.
Right after drinking the blood, she remembered!
Just like before.
Really!
When she drinks the blood of those creepy monsters,
her eyes go all red...
It was really scary,
when I pretended to be attacked and ran.
After Saya-chan beat that thing,
she started drinking its blood!
But isn't she pretty?
Most inhuman beings found in legends and myth's are said to be beautiful!
Then what are those monsters?
They're utterly irrelevant.
Saya's different...
Originally, my research focused on "Single Songs of a Hundred Poets."
Did you know that the old poems hide numerous riddles?
They aren't just dumb romance poetry.
All kinds of hidden stories about strange events and monsters find their way in.
Saya, that was where I heard about you!
I changed my focus and dug up everything I could find on you.
But it's all a mystery.
I'm sure of one thing, though!
You're so strong and beautiful...
You must be something akin to a god,
something more than mankind,
totally different than those monsters.
You're the star of the show.
And they're just the extras!
You're amazing...
You're a star with no script,
who doesn't even know that she's in a movie.
Anyway, I don't know how you could forget all that stuff you did.
That was the rule made by the person behind the experiment.
To give you false memories,
and if you seemed to be reverting, to do anything possible to stop it.
To maintain that and see if you'd stay Kisaragi Saya,
or return to being just Saya.
Why the hell would they bother?
No idea.
Only the one who devised the game could answer that.
So you decided not to go along with the game anymore.
And you invited Tokizane-kun and us to join you.
Then today, you were only supposed...
...to meet her at Guimauve and agitate her up a little.
Correct.
This won't backfire on us, right?
Coming here like this?
I'll tell them this was all part of shaking her up.
What's more,
I shut off the camera that monitors the storeroom.
Nice!
Way to go, Kanako-sensei.
Is she really Kanako-sensei, though?
It's a fake name.
Same with you, right?
Of course.
How could anyone expect to find so many obscure names in one place?
What did you request, for your participation in this project?
I wanted to see the real thing.
I just told Saya that, right?
Old myths and legends have always interested me.
But it's rare to get the chance to see the real thing.
I came to this town to see something authentic.
A real Shrovetide...
Not this fake one.
What?
What's a Shrovetide, anyway?
It's a period of time before a fast,
when permission is given to eat humans.
What the hell?
I kept on searching for evidence,
no matter how often those stubborn old men at the universities told me it was a folk tale.
But now I know it's real.
You exist,
and those things you call Elder Bairns do, as well.
I thought this stupid experiment would end quickly.
But that man...
No, that bastard...
He keeps returning you to Kisaragi Saya, using drugs and hypnosis.
I'm sick of this!
Once you're back to the old you, you'll show me the real Shrovetide.
Now, drink...
Drink the blood of the Elder Bairns,
and regain your true self, Saya!
The tranquillizers work, but they don't last.
But I'm glad they worked this one time at least.
Otherwise, even he might not have been able to catch you.
However, I can't have you running around, out of control again.
So...
It's fine.
I won't take it all.
Your blood is precious.
I'll put it to good use.
I know.
First, I should give some to him.
And then the rest... is already prepared.
Saya...
I thought I'd give you something to eat.
Finally, we'll be done with this stupid crap...
I had a good time with it.
The uniforms are cute.
Who'd believe these uniforms anyway?
No one would wear them here.
We're totally out of place.
You're right, but...
Why did we have to wear them?
No one wears black and red uniforms.
Maybe so it wouldn't stick out.
So what wouldn't?
The blood.
Makes sense!
She gets soaked with blood when she plays with those things.
Not that it matters... We're done here!
You don't think they'd let us take them?
What would you do with it?
It's totally cosplay.
Well, you know, you could do some stuff with them.
Oh! Get a bunch and have the girls wear them.
Last time, we screwed up, but we'll be more careful next time.
Yeah.
As long as no one finds out, we're okay...
No matter what we do.
Still?
Her memories should return if she drinks enough Elder Bairn blood.
What is this?
No one mentioned this!
Are you all right?
You were told to report immediately if there was any change in the star.
You've been gathering secretly, without checking in.
I figured you were up to something.
Up to something?
Why?
You know that we main cast are under observation, right?
That's only when we're on duty!
That's right!
When Saya wasn't around,
we turned off the GPS and the camera!
You can't be stupid enough to think they were the only ones.
The project is still under way.
Why did you do this?
After all, I'm not dead yet.
And...
You've weakened her badly.
Hurting the star tops the list of things you're forbidden to do.
W-We didn't really do anything.
We didn't tear off her fingernails...
or break her fingers.
But teacher told her a bunch of stuff.
I only told her the truth!
The cast's job is to hide the truth from her.
But I want to go home!
We don't know when this thing will ever end!
You knew the terms.
You agreed for your own profit.
I'm sick of this!
I just want the money!
I don't care who gives it to me.
Once she regains her memories,
Sensei will hand over the cash, and I will leave this hell-hole!
We need this!
Not only can he keep that whole thing off our records,
he can expunge it entirely!
Hey, Sensei!
You said no one would know!
That's what you said!
How could no one know?
The entire town was created specifically for this project.
The buildings, the people... Everything!
It's impossible to hide anything in this town.
What is he talking about?!
Sensei!
I thought it wouldn't matter.
If we keep this up, Saya's memories will never come back.
What kind of experiment is this?
It will never end if he overwrites her memory every time it's returning!
And I'll never be able to reveal it to the world!
The hell?
What about my money?!
I don't care about your plans... I'm risking my life.
That was really bad!
If he finds out, he won't fix our problem!
Shut up!
I'm out of time...
At this rate, I'll be banned from publishing!
And I have living proof, right here before me.
If Saya regains her memory, I can take him and...
Do what?
What can you do to me?
oboroyo ni nagare ochiru kuchi susabu koe wa
朧夜に流れ落ちる口遊ぶ声は
The sound of someone singing came flowing from the mist.
kuukoku wo kagoyaka ni yurara mai odoru
空谷をかごやかにゆらら舞い踊る
And danced serenely through the deserted valley.
te wo nobaseba kieyuku tsukanoma no yume ni
手を伸ばせば消えゆく束の間の夢に
Over a transient dream that will vanish when I reach out my hand,
mienai ai wo kazashite hitori hohoemu no
見えない愛を翳して独り微笑むの
I hold aloft an invisible love, and smile alone.
utsuro na tsukikage wo nazoru shinayaka na sono yubisaki ni
虚ろな月影をなぞるしなやかなその指先に
I trace the evanescent moonlight with the soft tip of my finger.
subete hodokare yudanete shimau
すべて解かれ委ねてしまう
Everything will unravel and become mine.
aa... moyuru himegoto
あぁ…燃ゆる秘め事
Ah... a burning secret.
mugen no shirabe rakuen ni izanau
無弦の琴-調べ- 迷宮-楽園-に誘う
An endless tune of a stringless koto allures me to a labyrinthine paradise.
utau hodo ni utsukushiku karamiau towa no kioku
歌う程に美しく絡み合う永却の記憶
The more we sing, the more beautiful our intertwining, everlasting memories will be.
omoi no tsuyu wa anata wo motomete
思いの露は貴方を求めて
The dewdrops of my thoughts, while seeking after you,
kareru koto naku kono sora wo someage
枯れることなく この暗海を染め上げ
unfading, it stains the deep, dark sky.
kagayaki tsuzukeru deshou
輝き続けるでしょう
and will continue sparkling.
Saya, what do you think defines a person?
Are they born to "it"?
Or is "it" something they become?
Next time on Blood-C:
12 「For Some Men I Grieve」